I love Caroline's lectures! She is my favorite Spiritual teacher and resonate with her more than any other.
Saturday, August 31, 2019
It took me 20 years to realize that being in the retail business with my own storefront was not what I really wanted to do. I loved what I offered to sell - my own art, beautiful crystals, lots of New Age things at the time, jewelry, and pretty things to hang in your home, but I disliked dealing with the public! I also spent money and never made a profit, yet I kept the storefront(s) as I moved a dozen times through those years in hopes I'd find a location where people would come in at least to look, but my comfort zone kept me where the right people didn't exist. So now I look back and don't know why I didn't give up retail much sooner. I am so content at home and not sitting looking out the windows of my rental space waiting for people to come in. I had to put up with men coming in and parking themselves on a chair, staying and talking for an hour!! That I didn't like.
Now I know...that was not my purpose. My heart and soul love the arts and always have. I took art lessons in different mediums for years in different parts of the country wherever we lived at the time, and more recently, online which was NOT for me! I am NOT group oriented and learned that lesson. I'm close to not doing much on Facebook now, too. Where is everybody that I have things in common with? Maybe alone as I.
Not only painting/art but I have always loved writing and music and dance. I used to write song lyrics and poetry...when I'm "moved" I do my best work. In art, in writing, and I think that is what I am content with and my purpose is - to write and paint, but what then do I do with that? Do I accumulate what I create? Join the millions stuck in never-never land behind 30,000 others trying to sell their art, too? Do I write a book? About what? It takes too long. I like to create something and do something with it right away. I do love creating websites but it's tough to get people to look at them, as again, you're stuck on the millionth page of links and no one will find me. What I have noticed others do is that you start locally, make a name for yourself, but then you still have to "go to the people!" That is so not for me at this stage of my life.
I'm just thinking out loud, folks. This is a comfortable way for me to express myself - getting my thoughts out of my head. It doesn't matter if anyone reads my blog posts, especially these where I just more or less talk to myself. So like the words above in that adorable image, what has gotten me to where I am in my newly found realizations, I am "un-becoming" the things I thought I wanted to become...it took me long enough. I so don't want to do what others are doing when I was at the same place interested in the things they still are interested in, and so that leaves me with the question, do I have a tribe? Do I even want to belong to a tribe? I love being alone and I love my home, yard, and animals, including the wild ones that I feed every day. I love to read when I make time and have come to realize that I love the teachings of Caroline Myss. So I read her books and listen to her lectures on You Tube. Then I think about my place in this big universe which brings me back to what do I really want to do with my time? :) Part of me wants to share/offer what I create to the masses like everyone else who paints and writes. I just haven't found it yet.
So as the message above states - at least I know what I don't want anymore and where I don't fit in. That's a good beginning and I am well past that. My lifestyle would be different if I were alone but I am not. I have a husband who is different in almost all ways than myself and we don't even eat the same foods. :) I would be more myself if I were alone and is one reason I get confused about my true purpose. Oh well, such is life. I have another day ahead of me to think, love my surroundings, write to my heart's content, and not sit anywhere waiting for the public to like and want what gifts I have to offer. (haha) Oh, if you knew the time I wasted - and soooo much money! Oh well, I have learned that lesson and now I am "Free to be Me! :)
Tuesday, August 27, 2019
Monday, August 26, 2019
Hello, "Unknown Region!"
Where are you looking at my blog? Might it be from...
The International Space Station?
Might you be floating on...
The High Seas?
Or might you be under the ocean in...
The Lost City of Atlantis?
Wherever you are, thank you for your interest in my blog posts! :)
Saturday, August 24, 2019
Friday, August 23, 2019
Sunday, August 18, 2019
"This Dream of Love Came True
for You and Me"
You walked away from me toward the church but it was to pick this flower! You walked back to my car with a big smile on your face! :)
Thank you for the daisy and for kissing me...again!
Was it just a dream of love or was it a sign that we were meant to be together in this life and in another...forever?
Saturday, August 17, 2019
A day late, but I will always remember the day the world lost Elvis. I wrote song lyrics soon after and collaborated with a company in Nashville and had a record made. Read the lyrics under the category: "Song Lyrics" to "Good-Bye Elvis" and see the 45 rpm on my website: iamalionunderthesun.com
Tuesday, August 13, 2019
Monday, August 12, 2019
Writers are writing, teachers are teaching, and preachers are preaching, so why isn't it translating?
Everyone is writing books and teaching through workshops and preaching what they believe and so people are following what and who attracts them and their beliefs, then a tribe is created. So all the good that is written and all the inspiration that is taught and all the stuff about God is preached, but it's staying with those who are cut from the same cloth. What good does it do for the well being of all? People congregate with those like themselves. They won't attract those who have different or even evil thinking and live a negative way of life. They, too, have a tribe and that's why society has problems and why we are a divided people.
I have difficulty finding my tribe. I haven't found a society I want to step out into. I must belong to a tribe known as the "hidden ones" because we all stay alone and so we don't find one another because we don't have our special place to go where we gather with our same desires and beliefs. I think this is where communities develop as they are only like each other. I belong in a society of vegans, animal lovers, nature lovers, and work at growing food and caring for the environment. I also belong to a tribe where everyone is creative and contribute to and compliment each other's artistic abilities. Does such a society exist? The problem with people is that everyone is different and we're living intertwined with all of our differences and we are attracted to those people who we have the same things in common with. Groups and communities and places of worship are grown and then we are separate.
It used to be,"opposites attract," but for a while now it has been, "like attracts like." It gets real tricky when you live with someone and one person changes and the other doesn't and the one who changed wants to live differently and go in a different direction. You stay and make the best of it or leave and pay the consequences. "Life is difficult" - the first sentence in the book,
"The Road Less Traveled."
Smile - Be Happy - Live your Truth
(What else can we do?)
Saturday, August 3, 2019
Today is "my day" and it isn't over, still have to open gifts from my husband and have Chinese take-out for supper, but the week starting with Sunday July 29th has been amazing each and every day as I received 5 Cameo videos with birthday songs and wishes from wonderful people that you can watch in a post below.
These flowers are from my oldest friend, Norma, since 3rd grade who lives in NY. She is my other half of the duo known as "The Gold Dust Twins" nicknamed by our high school math teacher, Mr. Bedard! :) I love her and am so fortunate she is still in my life!
Even the balloon is happy! :)
Now for what's yet to come...cake and presents! Oh, yes, and scratch tickets!
From the best dairy farm and bakery in New England - Wright's Farm!
It is a yellow cake, custard filling, butter cream frosting, and I chose the pretty pink and blue frosted roses. :)
Thank you to all my friends on Facebook, too, for their birthday wishes, and to my friends Mary and Jack who live out west, and to Constantine, John Davidson, Carson Kressley, Ben from The Bachelor, and especially Jonathan Mangum from Let's Make a Deal for showing me the set during a taping of the show! You all made my birthday the most special ever! Love you all!!! XOXO
Me at the Pequot Hotel Lobby at Foxwoods - my old stomping ground!